Thursday, December 11, 2008

Martyrdom

standing at the horizon
trying
to hold the sun up
so this day won't end
third degree burns
love scorches worst
human sized crematory
chest is a hearst
repetition is the father of learning
but yearn
is a pair of onyx black ray bans
blinding you from the same mistakes
so you play yourself
feelings on repeat
masturbating never felt this good
but like all addictions
it keeps calling
like you're mad at it
but don't want to speak
when you know you really do
so it will leave back to back messages
you give in and answer
call back
another three month phone call
'til your heart hangs up
like the clothes in your closet
you push to the back
when spring rains
murder cold winters
but some girls wear uggs in the summer
the dumb and dumber types
that can't tell the difference between seasons
let alone the distinct discrepancies
between love and lust
in love and like
love making and a nut
in this trail mix of a world
i guess a cashew can be an almond
you can be a wife without a diamond
hallucinations can arrange carbon atoms into an isometric-hexoctahedral crystal lattice
on a ringless finger
and fears of loneliness
although accompanied by affliction
will make you loiter and linger
hoping for change
but like a new york city bumb
pennies come and go
never stays long
heart homeless once again
nothing helps you stay on your feet permanently
no shelters or support groups for love losers
just alcoholics anonymous for the drinking
intravenous feeding for the anorexics when you stop eating
yet they never seem to pick up on the suicide hotlines











ironic, the eerie resemblance of a dial tone and a flat line