Martyrdom

standing at the horizon

trying

to hold the sun up

so this day won't end

third degree burns

love scorches worst

human sized crematory

chest is a hearst

repetition is the father of learning

but yearn

is a pair of onyx black ray bans

blinding you from the same mistakes

so you play yourself

feelings on repeat

masturbating never felt this good

but like all addictions

it keeps calling

like you're mad at it

but don't want to speak

when you know you really do

so it will leave back to back messages

you give in and answer

call back

another three month phone call

'til your heart hangs up

like the clothes in your closet

you push to the back

when spring rains

murder cold winters

but some girls wear uggs in the summer

the dumb and dumber types

that can't tell the difference between seasons

let alone the distinct discrepancies

between love and lust

in love and like

love making and a nut

in this trail mix of a world

i guess a cashew can be an almond

you can be a wife without a diamond

hallucinations can arrange carbon atoms into an isometric-hexoctahedral crystal lattice

on a ringless finger

and fears of loneliness

although accompanied by affliction

will make you loiter and linger

hoping for change

but like a new york city bumb

pennies come and go

never stays long

heart homeless once again

nothing helps you stay on your feet permanently

no shelters or support groups for love losers

just alcoholics anonymous for the drinking

intravenous feeding for the anorexics when you stop eating

yet they never seem to pick up on the suicide hotlines

ironic, the eerie resemblance of a dial tone and a flat line