Martyrdom

standing at the horizon

trying

to hold the sun up

so this day won't end

third degree burns

love scorches worst

human sized crematory

chest is a hearst

repetition is the father of learning

but yearn

is a pair of onyx black ray bans

blinding you from the same mistakes

so you play yourself

feelings on repeat

masturbating never felt this good

but like all addictions

it keeps calling

like you're mad at it

but don't want to speak

when you know you really do

so it will leave back to back messages

you give in and answer

call back

another three month phone call

'til your heart hangs up

like the clothes in your closet

you push to the back

when spring rains

murder cold winters

but some girls wear uggs in the summer

the dumb and dumber types

that can't tell the difference between seasons

let alone the distinct discrepancies

between love and lust

in love and like

love making and a nut

in this trail mix of a world

i guess a cashew can be an almond

you can be a wife without a diamond

hallucinations can arrange carbon atoms into an isometric-hexoctahedral crystal lattice

on a ringless finger

and fears of loneliness

although accompanied by affliction

will make you loiter and linger

hoping for change

but like a new york city bumb

pennies come and go

never stays long

heart homeless once again

nothing helps you stay on your feet permanently

no shelters or support groups for love losers

just alcoholics anonymous for the drinking

intravenous feeding for the anorexics when you stop eating

yet they never seem to pick up on the suicide hotlines

ironic, the eerie resemblance of a dial tone and a flat line

Wireless

apologies died in Eden

so sorry's don't work here

when feelings are hurt

so spare me and you and this world

which is my heart, with no Atlas

perhaps when

you spoke

you thought those repetitive words would faze me

highly mistaken

that phrase so familiar

i know it like the back of my hand

or maybe more like the front

they covered, from forehead to chin, many a time

tears drip from unworked palms

this eye faucet needs repairing

what the fuck do you know about caring

my existence, the bane

you are a virtuoso in hurt and pain

forget broken clocks

forever is a naive state of mind

i ache like new church shoes with no socks

i wonder if GOD could heal my worn feet

or time's

since it will never stand still again

these moments will pass

my heart's failed once more

pills just slow it down

you can explain 'til they come home

the cows

no bluetooth, verizon sucks

i can't hear you now

or ever

OH...

there's my ear piece

(to be continued, what can i say, i punish myself (AS ALWAYS))

 

Obituary

Girls love flowers
So today I brought a bouquet of black roses
To take to my hearts funeral
Encased in a skinny tattooed casket
But she didn't even show up to show respect
So I mourn all by my lonesome
This about the fourth funeral I've been to in my life
I don't usually do these
But I can't help that I'm a necrophiliac
Torture myself with emotional daggers, love whips, sexual asphyxia
Pain turns me on
Makes my dick hard
I climax when my heart is broken
Toes curl when I'm lied to
Moan when I'm cheated on
Scream when you never have time for me
Bite my lip when you make me sad
Eyes roll in the back of my head when you move on
When you say your done with me, I just want to eat it
I'm naughty
A hurtful freak
Pain lusting nymphomania
Your serpents tongue is orgasmic
Hurt me some more
Let me see how far you can go
Blow me
My hearts a slut
This mind's a virgin
My ears are dirty whores
My hand is a pimp
My eyes are abstinent
Only when I'm with you
So all I ask is for the next one is to show up to my hearts funeral
I've already brought the flowers
You don't have to say any words...






You've done enough

I always wanted to kno...

where do you go to get a broken heart fixed?

and when your emotions are mixed

who sorts them out?

where's the "in love" hole you fall into?

is there even a ladder to climb out?

are you a thief if you take someone's breath away?

and on the brightest days

i've seen countless clouds

which is the ninth one?

if can barely stand them when your with them

how can't you live without him?

how can you still feel empty if someone completes you?

if I'm your air, when I leave, do you turn blue?

do you suffocate?

why would you wish for a night to last forever

if you want to be with me 'til the end of days?

am I your baby?

or your Daddy?

am I your Lover?

or your Boyfriend?

what would "IT" be at second sight?

if you never felt like this before, and this doesn't work out

then...

1 2 3

art... =/

barely,

conceited

delusions,

eclectically

furnished

grammar.

hypercritical

individuals

justify

kenosis.

lack

morals.

narcissistic

objectives.

persistently

question

radiolucence.

shamelessly

tasteless

unless

vivid

without

xesturgy,

yielding

zealousness

Ruby Veneer

There's this room in my chest that reeks of asbestos and formaldehyde

where feelings are lost and love died

near dead emotions and in one corner my heart screams and cries

from estrogen driven actions and mind's lies

murderous looks and bothered sighs

cold hugs and diamond cutting eyes

if it were any other way

tomorrow's yesterday's today

you couldn't base it on legitimacy

sub zero kisses

black roses, so numb

caught in a love conundrum

a spectacular caricature of intimacy

a rose, a red one

petal-less

in the midst of an entrapping kiss

i am but a stem

in an empty garden...

love is the best facade

Just Tell Me

I write unrehearsed

no protection, raw verse

fuck her mind

make her thoughts moan with the progression of each line

sex her intellect

her third eye dripping. so wet

entice her with metaphors

her ears yearn for more and more

subconscious rhythmically pulsates

temperature rises, increased heart rate

closed-minded, this poem unfolds, yet blinded

she clinches her brain tighter

intrigued by this triple X writer

listen closely, she opens her ears wider

so i wrote slow and deep

she drenches the mead notebook sheets

now imagine if i use my mouth and speak

my pronunciations make her soul weak

covers her auricles because she can't take any more

screams my name

pushes my lips closer

so the words go deeper

"speak faster Free"

i don't normally do this on the first reading, i said

i don't normally listen, so i hope we're not speeding, she plead

and what followed had me mistaken

if you called home heaven or hell

the angelic nastiness you posses

made you by far the best

therefore hard to tell

and you want me to tell you more

i oblige

and for this night i'll be your poetic whore

or yours, if you want me to

imagine

The Persistence Of a Fabricator

i am a liar

from the tip of my toe nail

to the curl of hair follicle

where my brain begins

to where my spinal cord ends

the greatest falsifier will...

tell you they care

because thats exactly what you want to hear

and she wants to hear, and she wants to hear

but thats my baby mother

her, she my whenever I want to go there

you're my right now, right here

i love you. you, and you

your world is charged with the grandeur of my delusions

fervent hopes

my good dick enhances these illusions

her chimera

and the other her's pipe dreams

I'm not at all what I seem

but my persistence makes you believe

I am the footnote beneath deceive

so when you read this

and I'm found out

you'll can say what you want

rant and rave

it will only increase my stock value

claim me more fame

I will be your asshole, your son of a bitch, your dog, your motherfucker, your lame

I will stare right in those homely eyes

lie through the dental floss opening in my teeth

take none of the blame

remember you said you've never met anyone like me

so how can all men be the same

maybe all women are unchanged

indifferent

you all fall for the same thing

appreciate my art

your mind is my canvas

your ear is my art gallery

my media is fibs, lies, figments, and phantasms

my preserver is my sex

keep your eyes fixed and your soul intertwined with orgasms

so when or if I do decide to slip up

and the fam-I-LIAR seems out of place

just please look past this blue hue of my face

that is so fabulist

think back to my genuine voice

my sincere words

our coitus interruptus

and the fact you ignored my lisp [some ppl said this particular line they didn't understand, but just think how a SNAKE sounds]

dear you

my lies

 

sincerely, a forehead kiss

how true this isn't, or is this?

Autopsy Report

Today I was found dead outside of my poem
body word riddled
laying in a pool of verbs
pen gripped tight in my right hand
but i couldnt pull the ink quick enough
so as love stood opposite of me
approximately 5 feet
because I promised myself I'd never let her get that close again
or fall so deep in it
but I dug a hole 6 feet
and now ironically we're here
duel stance
and she shot faster than me
see, this is the story
time and time again
love has hurt me
so when i finally did enough push-ups
lift 100 pound wieghts to leave her
she couldn't comprehend
its either me
or your going to be slow fucking this here concrete
gasping for air, because the dirt is so sweet
foreplay with casket sheets
this love bitch is crazy
so i reached for my pen
but what i wrote didn't hurt
these poems barely fazed her
as I'm scribbling verbosely
she pulled my heart from her L
loaded it with familiar words
now I'm writing faster
she pulls the trigger slowly
"Nigga drop that pen and come back to me"
raise my hand and aim it at her O
she lets off with no hesitation
her eyes don't even blink
and as the words spew from my heart
hits me so forcefully
she says "One day, I could have loved you back"
tears fallin down her V's
my body dropped
leaking the most grammatic nouns, pronouns, verbs, and adjectives
did I deserve this
am I that cynical and love negative
I had no faith in her
underestimated her so greatly
but I'd take this icebox any day
than a heart with a lady and no warranty
fuck LOVE






what happened to killing me softly?

I wrote this in "some alley"

as we live through the present
the earth kills yesterdays
and tomorrow's too
but when 11:59 becomes that 25th hour
I'd like 12:01 to be spent with you
i want mornings to be clear skied
like that day I asked what size do you wear
right eye squinched, sun glared face
i remember this corner, this 1st place ribbon street
where we met for the third time
i say third because i've seen you two times before
my lips were stuck in traffic
but each time including the third
and even more recent
the 100th will be like the first
you are my thirst
in my mind
i rehearshed these lines
but it wasn't quite like what is being written
i couldn't ask for a better YOU
but if i was granted that wish
i'd glady trade it for your kiss
you're bliss defined
i want our seconds to last as long as your hair
and when blue skies turn black
i want my stomach to your back
and everyother morning to be just like that
could you give me a million tomorrow's
or go half on a baby
but get my 100 percent
fuck always being there
i always want you here with me
when words can't describe
emotions, bottled up, explode
when you ask me what I'm thinkin
and I say
you are my song when there's no music to play
you are to me what history is to every day
or you could be, eventually
all i want
check this out
is for YOU to be
[like that thing we do when we finish eachothers sentences]
at the end of I Love




whoever YOU may be

Mr. & Miss

Often called many names I'm not

I'm simply Mr. E

Miss Taken is my character traits

but when I'm known to get 

its often followed by "my Miss Take"

gossip and untrue chatter

Freeman 101 taught by Miss Advise

but the people sit attentively

lend their ears to Miss Conceive

but hate is a familiar vernacular to some

the lame ones listen carefully

walk closely behind Miss Led

who's best friends with Miss Lead

intentionally deceiving

like some looks are

but until you open the book

and read a few lines

your just the same as Miss Construe

whose confidant is Miss Interpret

i don't want to be Miss Understood  =/

Untitled

Haven't been on here on in a while and I sincerely apologize. So here I'm back. I've been really uninspired and into school and work. It occupies 98% of my time. But then again that's a good thing, cause the fuck girls and the fuck boys  haven't been speaking my name so everything works out just fine. I love you all and all the people that have been hitting me up and asking for a post or just showing love. Anyways :

hearts are stone cold metal

i'm running out of rose petals

i love you, i love you not's

love is a word often forgot

and with luck's four leaf clover

i will start all over

cardiac tissue perforated

some four letter words are over-rated

i want to fall so deep in hate

your rehearsed apologies are far too late

now every time i see you

my chest is frosted ice blue

to pretend to care

your voice bleeds my ears

your truth is hypothermic

your lies are my tourniquet

today i added two and two

it came out to fuck you

my one and only plight

is if you live past this night

or if you make it past this poem

iono

Untitled

give me a sheet of 8 x 10 computer paper

64 color crayon box, clear tape, and a stapler

(like when we had arts and crafts

i'd draw in my textbook, during math)

and watch me change the world

we all are stick figures

fashion nimrods, street corner niggers

and if i meet another model

i'll throw up for her

lure her too my bed

and when her clothes drop, just laugh

such a travesty, size four is way to big

leave my presence

and t with that, her present

a shattered dream

because if she opened a book

read between the lines, reached the back page seam

seems like the career choice would have been different

but i guess miss tyra will have to do for now

because if i meet another fashion whore

it would be the third one this week

to b con't

Pride

Your eyes scream so loudy
But your lips only look
I hold on to my silence so proudly
My heart is what you took








that's It lol

Just Stop

Lay there unmotivated
Doesn't take much 2 flick the light switch
Fake smile, seemingly elated
A ladder maybe, to climb down that ditch
Old moves don't work, two-step out-dated
Use to cut rug, tears still marked by a stitch
But those cold words your voicebox stated
Your hand over your forehead as your fingers twitch
Not at all what i thought it should be, highly over-rated
Or maybe you explained wrong or its a matrix glitch
Because I wouldn't have disposed of this watch, time wasted
Or am i mistaken, at the part of which
That was so dolorous, made you take down negated
No explanation, still stcratching my head, confused itch
No regrets, but if put off and waited
Same story, fuck next time, place switch
Not too much work, uninspired and undedicated
the growing up is poor, but my words are still rich







[sidebar: don't ask me what it means, and if you don't get it, then I did my job]

SIGH

If they had ear cocaine this would be IT. ITs too many genre's to describe or place i one category but I kno it will be freakishly under-rated. This is my summer pick for 008. Santogold is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MEAN. Fav track- L.E.S. Artistes.

l8rz

YEA SO UMMMM.....

the new season
of GOSSIP GIRLS
is fawkin crack...




yea thats it

Beautiful Weather

The weather has been off and on lately. Fuck is up with that? Just finished watchin Ratatouille, one of my favorite animated movies. Had the meanest hang over all day. Jamie's lil shindig @ G+G last nite was too much fun. I vomitted everywhere. Sorry ummpa. Came home, dropped my keys in front of the door after I opened it, could have sworn I put them on the fridge. Then I fell asleep fully clothed with one sneaker on. My mom says I'm an alcoholic =/ . I drink alot. I have alot on my mind sometimes and for those half-a-days I forget, its all worth IT. Sidebar: I love my bff tiffany, she is my heart, and she still kissed me goodnite even though I vomitted everywhere. =] This tension headache is killing me. I need some pills or some or a slavic chick who says yes to everything cause she can't understand what I'm saying.

OUCH

EVERYBODY NOSE



MY PRISON

I think I'm addicted to ANTM -_- , Fatima is a beast in the looks department :::lion roar:::. And I think i wana marry Katarzyna =D But uhhra yea... I've been gettin mine blown alot lately. I'm constantly aggrivated and irratated. A change of scenary is needed ASAP. New gossip girls episodes starting on the 21st so my monday nites won't b half blah anymore. Sidebar: my sidekick dies @ the end of this year.

You ever feel so many ways all at once

got a disturbing text and it just was unecessary and full of bullshit. If you can't take the kind of person I am why choose to deal with me. Ohhh sin you're so interesting, you're so real, you're so this and that yet I'm so cold. Yes I am all of these things. Can I just live bullshit free? Peassssssssssssssssssssssseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. I DO NOT WANT A GIRLFRIEND GET IT THROUGH YOUR THICK SKULLS. I am hard to read for a reason and if non-matriculated you wouldn't even begin to fathom the kind of person I am let alone how to deal with me or be on my level or bring something equally as good to the table. This goes for friends and females alike.

prior to these feelings
admiration for everything that is you
caught the wind
bottled it in a bottle, blue
an impossible feat
the fact that the spaces between these fingers
prevents the possession of air which is everywhere
still. this summer breeze lingers
and now you have a piece of it
familiar emotions won't be de ja vu
in the entrapment of homely arms
noon skies turned a purple, orange hue
the moon walks down a star-lit street
eyes glued to conversant pavement
routine nights of a distant past
present memories, not like days when
the difference between sure and indifference
too good to be true words
starting line reads "100 % Trust," gradually sweats out
now you don't know what to think because of sincere verbs




to be cont. (i can't finsih shit yo, wtf is up)




l8r

The Key To Life Is

I drink so much of this its ridiculous but it keeps the face clear @ the same time i use the bathroom @ least 10 times a day. Its worst because I have to use it the worst as soon as I get on the train to go home. Can you say torture? But thats neither here nor there. [Sidebar: I like that new Mike Jones song, its hella catchy] I'm having a fall back attack. I been single for so long, looks like thats going to be the story for a little while longer. My last 2 brief encounters don't count. I just can't deal and its always because of unavoidable bullshit. Somethings got to give. I just need to get of here, like dead ass -_- . As soon as I'm interested or see myself putting time into something I think is worth it, here comes a bullshit bomb that explodes in my face or I have to prove myself which is not really a problem but I don't have any hidden motives. TRUST is the longest word in the dictionary. Sidebar: I'm going over seas to marry a slavic chick, I need a girl that speaks no english. Anyways here:





i aint got nothing right now but this





"harder than sign language with no fingers to a deaf person"





bbl

Midterms=1 step closer to my future goal

So i should be studying the below but the above is how i feel about it
Who know's what diagram is going to be on the test but I have to memeorize 'em all
This is my save me look

anyways i been missing out on on alot of things becuase of school but hey it will all pay off in the end. I'm not missing much, but I would like to go to paris next summer which is in the works, LA in august (GOD willing) and somewhere hot for christmas break in december, fuck this summer cause I'll be in school while all the hoodlums are outside not knowing how to act, but hey thats every New York summer, can't wait for graduation, I need some much needed "ME" time. Everyday that spasses I'm one step closer to one of my many goals. When things fall into place you can't help but smile, I love all ya'll, this is for you:

hope is hopeless

unless in the end

there is faith to depend on

i'd want to live forever

is there a clever scheme

i can use to sow the seams of my life together

so that i may never lose you

i forgot to pray to live these years in youth

hopeless this is, i'm too uncouth

but you are moved

words fill your mind paper

i speak too many

lost the page number, no stapler

but if you don't understand

i wish to know all languages

or could a simple gesture

such as holding hands

speak voluminous volumes

is this too much

shall i turn it down a notch

if time were infinite

i'd go on forever

new batteries for your stop watch

all i'm saying is that

i want to be with your for as long as the opposite of never

or is that phrase to clever

for whoever

may read this

or not

wheter they like it or not

is not really a concern of mine

like you ought to be

one choice, indefinitely

now see

if i where cupid

i'd hav a desert eagle .50 millimeter bow

shoot you close range

as you fell in love

catch you before the second hand on the clock changed

or is that too dangerous of a metaphor

to be con't

I Get On Extra Grind When Its Dinner Time

LMFAO

so yea i cooked all the food in the house and this was the only thing left, blueberry fawkin pop tarts and 3 sips of fiji, if this is what my life has been reduced too? its quite sad ANYWAYS yea it was really good and i'm still a lil uninspiried, school is racking my brain, i need some me time, i need to get away, and write, write WRITE, i miss those nights when 4 page poems came to me rightbefore i went to sleep, fuck is up with me. i love all of you and everyone who has been showin love and who likes my wordplay, i really appreciate it, so this is for u [sidebar: this is going to be hella whack, it's one of my off nites]

roses are red

violets are blue

boogers are green

nah i'm just playing

trying to figure out what to say and

nothin comes to mind

its like that writers block kind

of feeling when try to make words come together

forever thats what you said we would bee

za have the sweetest honey i've ever

had one of those situations happen

to be the funniest thing i havent heard since

when did she start dating him

and her dont make a good couple

of hours ago you said you loved me

and who? nah that bitch is lying

is all you ever do

you remember the first time

to go get somethin worth living for

every word that is written has meaning

that this poem is everywhere

is a place i've never traveled but would like to go

away and dont come back

to what i was saying at the beginning about roses

have the sharpest thorns

in my side is what you are

n't you with him, i could have sworn

testimony and you put your life on it

never ceases to amaze me the things you come up with

me is what you should be but your confused

to why i even give a fuck

that shit, i deserve everything i get

is what you don't [you don't get it, get it]

even know my name

3 things you like about me

and you don't mix

that with the sugar

honey ice tea, you have to be the one

plus one equals two

of us need to compromise and come to an agree

to disagree cause this shit doesn't make any sense

that your hesitant and shy

away from me and your distant

thoughts is what wrote this poem

doesnt even rhyme but its mine

goodbye

Back Like I Never Left

F R E Emperor

i have been gone for a lil while, 1. bcuz i have been uninspired and IAW 2. bcuz my computer decided to crash when i needed it most, but thats neither here nor there, i'm back, i've missed you and i hope you've missed me, so this is for you




ida


ida



ida



ida



ida


ida like to get to kno you better
maybe in warmer weather
face the sun together
or would you rather






do something else
with your time?




un-tar my heart



pluck these feathers


fuck, i gather




i'll see you when school ends and the better



becomes the weather





ida



ida



ida



ida



ida hate for you not to feel the same

Rock Band Fiend

so i jus brought this today and i ben on it since i got home

BAND NAME: Snuck In The Back Door
Members: Freezer (Leader & Guitarist), Metal Face (Drummer), Slacker J (vocalist)



this is anothewr reason fo rme to stay home

Ohhh you trippin noww

you have no fuckin idea the play count of this song or this album, only one can relate




are you, are you that somebody? or is it you ben lovin on somebody else?



WHAT THE HELL YOU TALKIN BOUT?

Kinda back

this is for you




memories, the replies were always "Cause..."
i love you's answered
is uncurable cancer
i'm no longer the romancer i was
i could make you feel
something so fake
because no matter how long you stay awake
the day will always come to an end
the REAL is your dreams
so don't wake up
here is the only place where
you can place a seat on top of the world and sit
that emotion wasn't manifested by me
surely, i fed you sincere words
held you geniunely
but this was all a facade, you see
that wasn't at all me
you are the prettiest untruth
like those before and after ads
but you were after first and before last
said you've been through alot of shit in your past
men all wearing the same mask
and for this broadway play, you borrowed it
what a perfect fit
a table, two places set, and i sat there and got fed shit
and i desired that taste
it was the best shit i've ever tasted
seconds' if i may
to be away for a day was like mayhem
we had this odd chem... istry
you made me love that seat
when we were incomplete
because we couldn't stand eachother
when we were away from one another
but together
was like the best weather
a summer afternoon
a minute past was too soon
i wish those full moons would never end
i would have taped it to the darkness for you
black skies never again to turn bright blue
i'm a special kind of fool
not the yellow bus kind
the love is blind, you took over my mind, love and hate thin line, kind
then I was a can't sleep, no food, can't eat, cry out my eyes blood weep
thats just my heart you can sweep that up too, type
look to the light
and pray
I pray not to feel, not to touch, to see
and i would pray not to hear, unless
its pointless
if lies sound the same to the deaf

wtf is up

yooo, can anybody tell me if your born with allergies of do you get them, cause my ass been sneezing for the last 24 hours and its starting to piss me off a lil bit. Anywys havent wrote to you guys in a while, been kind of uninspired and going through some revolving door shit, but we'll see what happens. Free Your Mind... i really need to do that, and Lula thanx for that email it was some real shit and I'm sooooooo fucking with it.Oh yea, i fucking got two vesicles cooking grits, shit splattered on my fingers grrrrrrrrrrr [a vesicle is a small fluid filled sac, usually due to 1st or 2nd degree burns, your welcome]. I AM ME

mad rugged, in need of a shape up ASAP

starting to think this is what my days have been reduced to, but I've been getting alot of positive feedback and frankly I can'tstop, I have alot on my mind and I want to share it, if you don't mind. Took the day off from school and now I'm just sitting here about to go crazy with words, I love you and I love your eyes for reading these, hope you enjoy, this is for you

what did you think I would say

deep down, I was a convenience

something to numb the pain 

memories of him go away

but when its blissful and good at home

bed no longer cold, and you don't feel alone

you leave my heart stale

now its so right, where you couldn't stay

and if he loves you, then may

you live forever and a day

asthetic deciever and the gullable believer

not as niave as you thought

these stevie wonders work perfectly

see

I wasn't blind

your lies were fog to my mind

pupils dialated because at one time you were excitement

somethin new, somethin i looked foward to, like when

I couldn't wait to feel the homelyness of your palm

when there was no music, you were my favorite song

tell me why is "feel right" so wrong

why without you a tic toc feels a year long

i hope each tic toc eats you alive

your tongue killed you, verbal suicide

actions scream, words sell hopeless dreams

words cut open then try to sow back the seam

I'm not to blame

surreal story, amazing graphics, you created a great game

scratched CD, now the songs are all the same

have no fear, everythings fine

remember this happens all the time

i've

done what I can to revive

in my world, your suffocated, oxygen deprived

what you were has died

FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK

I was in love, when you were alive

a field of tattoo flowers

jus got home from school, day kind of dragged, a real blahhhhh 8-4 kind of day, i need a XXX vitamin water and i have this itch for another tattoo, how i miss the pain, a lil sex wouldn't hurt either, or jus mayb someone genuine to spend time with, i miss my bff btw, sidebar: asha has some powerful word skills =], anyways here you go




a word
no matter how many letters has so much power
but when comin from your mouth
words that were so sweet, became so sour
my ears recieve
those words decieve
love in your voice is just a four letter curse
remember need and want and can't live without
i yearned for those
starved myself from other females
hungry for your heart details
your tongue ails poison my body
the most beautiful liar
nothing more than a belt notch
after you threw away
what you told me was your favorite watch
i was a genuine time piece
or at least
that what you said
now a waste of time
a minute too long, a second dead
i was the best thing that happened
so whats the worst thing that didn't
i don't know how to treat a woman
a disappointment, no effort put forth
where were these words, why were they hidden
so calculated, love cries
my heart dries out, a drought, and die
sex moans are now cold sighs
i guess thats my fault too
i run from questions
miscommunication
feelings irrelevant, not mentioned
tension so thick
fuck love, LOVE makes me sick
remember when you said
and you promised
and you plead
remember you were the warmest part of my bed
nah, you probably wouldn't
you said you couldn't
go through that again
repent from this sin
but tell me if it ever was this good
tell me when
rip my heart from my arms
no harm done
the alram was disarmed
your a magician with charm
i hope home is his arms
i don't really do
i say these things because hurt won't let me say i love you
hurt won't let me need
or understand
or express
i loved you, yes
but that was yesterday

I so should be doing my pharmacology homework

but my vitamin water is finish and my pop-tarts are hot, AIM on the sidekick is blowin mine n as u can see ima fiend cuz I'm AIM'n mad hard on the pc, but as I'm sittin here, I realized ima fat n lonely person on the inside, but I'm workin on that, anyways this is for you




I'd give her my heart
If she could make me smile everyday
I'd give her my soul
If frowns were always this way
Upside down
Only if she doesn't mind picking my heart
Up from the ground
Just left of her night gown
She could keep it
Right on top of hers
Like when my face is buried in her neck
Engulfed in her body heat and eachothers sweat
Fall asleep to that love beat in her chest
This only lasts for one night
Maybe even less
Right back
to her putting on her dress
Me,
Left fronting
If she leaves my world won't be right side up
My mind says stay
My throat barely moist, dry mouth
Just stay with me 'til day breaks
And we'll put it back together, together
I want you to be
That person
When weather taps us on the back
We turn around confident
Now open that book
Pick a page
I promise I won't look
And pass it to me
Did you choose page seventeen?
See
Thats says it all
And all over again that dress begins to fall
I praised newton's law of gravitation
this is something new
hopefully somethin you would want to get use to
or maybe not
"get use to" is somethin you use to get
she said be spontaneous
be something I won't forget
be my catchers mit
only if you'll be my home base
cloud 81, a catch 22, love potion number 9
so selfish, a childs favorite word
mine
melted this icebox, filled this hollow chest
love architect, hard hat, heart cement
est unknown, 1 sincere plaza, in love edifice
builder anonymous
i havent met her yet

Pussy Personification

If pussy had emotions
I'd make her cry
And if it was death
I'd die
Open the casket and lie
Right in it
If it was truth
I'd bend it, NO
Tell it like it is
Because they say the truth will set you free
If it could see
I'd want to be
The first thing it set its eyes upon
If pussy was gone
I'd want to be where it left to
And if it was blue
I'd cheer her up
I'd drink from it
If pussy was a cup
If I fell on bad times
Pussy would be good luck
If I was at the lowest degree of sadness
Pussy would be my bliss
I'd give her a tongue kiss
If she was a french lady
She'd be as sweet as sadie
Like that R. Kelly song
I don't want to be right
If pussy is wrong
Or left even
If she was leaving
I'd chase
I'd catch pussy if it was a case
And if it was coke
I'd sniff that line
And if she were mine
She'd be nine
And I'd be seven
Because thats what I eight
I'd never be on time
If pussy was late
And if pussy was great
I'd be tony the tiger
If she was annoying
I'd wouldn't mind her
I'd find her
If she was lost
I'd be an employee
If pussy was the boss
However much she was
I'd pay pussy's cost
She'd be number 11 on the chinese lunch special
Extra general tso's chicken sauce
I'd be exhaust... ed
If pussy was a race
I'd be first place
Out-running everyone's pace
I'd love it when I'm in her



prescence
This is my homage to you
Pussy




I hope y0u get this message

Meriam Webster

A foolish, unreasonin, or extravagant attraction
an object of extreme, short-lived passion
infatuation defined
u r my infatuation personified, see synonyms at love t
hat's wut i can't find the definition of, or evn a reason
y ur voice sparks my libido
or y ur words mek me feel fetal
or y i dream vivid porn scenes
or y u remind me of christmas mornin
this is no mere...
infatution, or promise or pinky swear,
its has to b more,
patient to see wuts in store
this is a nail-biting novel, an unfinished movie
a feeling of intense desire n attraction toward a person with whom one is disposed to make a pair
unexplainable elation
love defined
see synonyms at infatuation.

My fear is empire state tall
4 me 2 put that parachute on again n fall

but @ 1 time i would have, with no chute @ all
after a couple years or months

you'd hear a loud thump
2 many times I took this love jump
walked 2 the edge, close my eyes, arms out, stepped off the ledge and drop
but when in love this fall should never stop
it should be like pouring water

into a bottomless cup
you should never have 2 get up

my fear stems from this
my body bruised from torturous bliss
i let love kill me over and over again
i fall get up n fall once again
hav u eva ben thru that
now you tell me about being fucking attached
or how you've been hurt in the past
and I'll show you my body cast
and the once wet plaster that surrounds my heart
now hard and holds together all the parts
you would think i was masochistic
let love kill me 2 wake and embrace love and kiss it
I'm foolish only because of this
my feelings caught up in my hearts sub-plot
and with love thas as far as I got...

Pralines n' Cream

my weakness, enough said

How many can relate?

i don't wana try again with any one, but i would like to be met half way, or even half way of half way, i want something new, something so not new york, you know? i want a los angeles, las vegas, houston, baton rouge, atlanta, miami, detroit, chicago, oklahoma city, salt lake city, des moines, rhode island female me, is that too much to ask for? where are you baby? call me or respond

Carpal Tunnel

my life in a nutshell

lupe's The Cool in heavy rotation

sidekick LX

and a $1 lighter

all i need is a semi perfect girlfriend

any suggestions?

Academy Award

The greatest poetry comes from pain
stab my heart with this pen
blood vessels ink stained
love is a game
happiness the same
and i neva win
thus a loser
name... less
this torment is my bliss
and my admiration grows on for the worlds greatest actresses
lay w/ devils in blue dresses
unconcious as she cuts these angel wings i grow back after every fall
5'6 but my ego is 7 feet tall
and it blinds me
a shroud
so i can't see
she walks on black clouds
can't hear her 4 inch heels as she creeps
maybe as much afraid of the leap as i am
but that's no excuse to be stuck backwards
if you werent lookin 2 move foward keep the car in reverse
and let me walk straight
as my heart follows in a hearst
what a scene
my senses aren't as keen... as i thought
up in the caught
i have nothin left
or right
how bout you
line goes flat
skin goes pale
lips go blue
nominees are
the oscar goes to